Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Comfort in a Cup!

As I mentioned in an earlier post I got selected by Raley's grocer to join their #raleystryit program. I was so excited! I have to admit I was most excited about getting free coffee. I selected the Raleys Organic k-cups in French Roast. I have always liked french roast and figured organic can't change anything so I am sure it will be fine.

Well fine didn't begin to cover it.  I opened the cellophane on the package and this aroma totally hit me by surprise! I could not believe how fragrant it was. I drink coffee daily and I have my fave (Starbucks) but their coffee had never smelled like this! The aroma filled the air and I hadn't even brewed it yet!! The obivious next step was to brew. My foot tapped in anticipation! If the aroma prior to brew was this good, how much better would it taste???

All I can say is Oh... My...Goodness!! Literally it was the best cup of coffee I have ever had.  I have had the best cups of coffee ever since! I love this coffee. It is so comforting, the coffee brews dark, not like brown water, but a rich color, when you add cream, it is actually still this caramel color, and the flavor is there and not just in the background.  I decided that the best description of this coffee is Comfort In A cup!!! It is fabulous!!  A serious must try!!

Thursday, October 9, 2014

Raley's Try-it Program!!

Wooo Hooo!!! Somebody is excited and that someone is me! Guess who was asked to join the Raley's try-it program? Yup! That's me!!! I am so excited to be able to blog about cool products I get to try for free! Woo Hoo!!! 

First up is going to be their Organic Coffee! I am excited especially since I have been really trying to move our family in a more healthy organic lifestyle!  It is great to know that it can start with me, and with such a simple step as my morning cup o' joe!

I was already a fan of Raley's and Bel Air, because first of all their stores are always clean and stocked. Their customer service is off the charts great, and I love that they have kid care.  When I was a mom of little girls (yes I still have one little) my mom friends and I would drop the kids off at the kid care and have lunch in the cafĂ©.  It was so nice to be able to have lunch without someone else sitting on my lap, picking at my food and spilling on me! 

Now I am excited to hear that my opinion counts!  So I will let you know how this goes, for me it's a new exciting adventure and I am stoked!!!

Friday, August 1, 2014

Here we go again....

At this point I laugh in the face of "balance". Every time someone says "balance" I scoff. I don't even know what it looks like. It can be a mystical creature with three heads and six eyes for all I know.  My life is not my own, my life, is picking up, cleaning, after everyone, feeding, fixing other's problems, being flexible on my own wants and needs, and by flexible I mean I have given up on any of my own wants and needs.

I think very few people receive nearly daily phone calls from family members where I have to drop what I am doing, change my whole day around and solve their issue or jump in to help, despite the plans I had.  If it isn't a phone call, it's my kids coming down the stairs in the morning freaking about this or that and I have to drop everything, calm the situation, and help resolve it.  By 7am on most days I have had more stress, more adrenaline, more cortisol expended than most people do all day.  I am freaking sick of it! Sick!

I truly doubt there will ever be a day, when just one person says, you know what? You do so much everyday, why don't you do what you want today.... Oh not that I haven't heard it, but then is followed up with a bunch of crap and I either feel guilty or overwhelmed by all that is needed following "my day" that I just abort the plan.

It is not that I do not understand that I do participate in all of this, but how do you say no when people need you?  It gets to the point where I get so sick of being flexible that I lose it.  When friends change plans, I cannot take the change, I for once want people to have a plan and stick to it! Is it that much to ask?  When I do actually stand up and say no, I am the bitch, I am the inflexible bitch who only thinks of herself. Well Damn it, if I don't no one will so if I am unwilling to bend, bend for me. Someone... just flipping once!

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Balance... What is that?

Some of my favorite blogs are ones where moms share their motherhood experiences. Really the source of most comedic relief in life comes from the mouths of babes.  While raising children can be the most trying, most selfless, hardest thing you will ever do, they have a way of breaking that tension with their quips, their silliness and their observations.

I still remember when my 15 year old asked me at age 2 when looking up at the evening sky, "Mom? Who cut the moon in half?" or my 12 year old telling my 15 year old "Sorry for your loss" after she said she was no longer friends with a friend none of us cared for. The kicker though I believe was when my 5 year old told her Papa, "Rosie died but she wasn't crucified." after talking to him about our beagle that had passed away. We still laugh about that! I guess when they learn about God, you never know what they will take in at a young age, but to hear a then 4 year old say crucified perfectly, and with such seriousness regarding a pets death, was priceless.

When I look at life as a wife of 17 years, a mom of 15 years I have seen so many blessings, I have seen tragedy, I have seen hope, and I have seen desperation.  What I am amazed is, when I look at the mirror I still see hair. Some days the fact that I have hair and my sanity astounds me! Its a gift... my life is... a gift.

My biggest struggle as wife and mother is maintaining myself as a person, independent of my roles.  I can lose myself so easily in the needs and wants of my husband and kiddos, that I forget to make myself a priority. I don't mean being "selfish" I mean remembering to take time and care of me so that I can be a better mom and wife. I will do really good for a while by focusing on exercise, taking boot camp or pilates classes, and making meals that suit my nutritional needs. Then as soon as a conflict arises in schedule, or food desires, I forget about me. I skip classes, make the foods they want.. and before I know it, I am feeling like crap: tired, sluggish, bloated, and overwhelmed. 

Every year I say this is the year I will add myself to the list... and I do. But then about a month later, I cannot even find the list! I am lucky to keep schedules correct, make sure so and so is dropped off and picked up at such and such time. Ugh!!!

I sure wish I could not only find balance, but keep it.  Motherhood guilt keeps me from doing a lot of things. I always worry, and I missing something? Am I keeping the kids from doing something because I am doing something for myself? Am I being selfish?  Where is the line?  I am sure hoping that by blogging... By discovering... I will find balance. Right now I am wondering what it looks like, and where I can find it?  I have looked high and low and cannot find it!